There was a time during this year where I felt like giving up on life. I was in the middle of my masters which I found really really hard. I went to my tutor and said, “I want to quit” this was just at the end of my first semester. It wasn’t just the fact that I found it hard, I just felt so shitty about every aspect of my life and I just wanted to do nothing. The constant feeling, what are you doing with your life? Surely, you should have it figured out by now?. During that time, I felt constantly down and sad all the time. I was constantly avoiding my responsibilities, procrastinating on my uni work and I fell so far behind. I would come home from uni or work and just sit on my bed watching tv. I don’t think I have ever felt so down. I kinda gave up on a lot, I would literally just sit at home and would only go out if it was to work or uni.
It took me a good few months to feel better and happier again, and that change had to come from me. I went and spoke to a tutor who specialised in my subject area and she gave me some pretty amazing advice.
So, lesson 1 – Talk to someone about your problem/issue or whatever is making you feel shitty. That in my opinion is the first step to feeling better about yourself and it lifts a HUGE weight from your shoulders. I also quit a job that I absolutely hated and I never felt happier giving in my letter of resignation.
Lesson 2 – Don’t be in a job that doesn’t make you happy. Honestly, there is nothing worse than waking up every day and dreading your day ahead. If you are living for the weekend, you are not living your life to the fullest, you are simply ‘Surviving’ and you are wasting your life away.
I was talking to a friend the other day and she said to me “I really don’t know what I’m doing with my life”. Which I replied, “no nor did I couple months back”, and it made me think, knowing that you are not the only person in the world to feel ‘like this’ now and again kinda makes you feel a tiny bit okay. Right?. I know life may not turn out the way you have planned it but, there are better opportunities out there which you may be better at. Let me try and explain it, if you take a wrong turn in life and end up being happy and successful, what if you never took that wrong turn?. We are most likely at exactly where we are supposed to be in life.
Remember! “The moment you’re ready to quit is usually the moment right before a miracle happens”. Miracles do exist!