For as long as I can remember, I have been fighting a battle with anxiety. I used to think that this was a problem I could deal with on my own. I didn’t want to be judged or people to look at me differently. No one must know. This was my mentality.
It got to a point where everything I bottled up, every emotion, every outburst, and every feeling, I made it much worse for myself. I remember thinking that I need to tell someone but, the thought of that terrified me. My anxiety played scenarios in my head that were probably never going to happen. I thought I would get called ‘crazy’. This delayed me getting help and talking to someone. We live in a world where our culture isn’t too keen on being honest with our pain or feelings because, no one will like us if we are always ‘depressed’ or ‘sad’ or ‘moody’. So instead we put up a front and pretend we are ‘okay’ to stop people from knowing how we are truly feeling.
It’s okay to admit that you are hurting, sad, lonely, broken or lost. It’s even okay to cry and let it all out. By bottling everything up and pretending like it’s okay when it really isn’t, will not solve anything. Talking about how you feel with someone isn’t a sign of weakness. It is about YOU taking care of your well-being and doing what YOU can to stay healthy. I am a firm believer in embracing how you are feeling whether that be sad or happy.
I didn’t talk about my mental health because I didn’t want to be a burden. Let me tell you, talking about your mental health, talking about your feelings and your emotions is NEVER, EVER A BURDEN.
Not talking about your feelings will kill you. Keeping your feelings and emotions bottled up can kill you. Thinking that no one cares can kill you.
PLEASE REMEMBER THAT
your every emotion, every feeling that you have is VALID and that should be accepted.