I would say this past year and a half I have felt more lost and confused than I have ever felt in my life. My life changed in the blink of an eye and I didn’t know how to cope, I lost myself completely. I struggled a lot with my mental health, there were days and there are days when I don’t want to get out of bed. It takes everything in me to get out of bed. I’ve become quite good at hiding my pain behind a smile. I think that has become my life now.
During this past year, I distanced myself from a few friendships with the reason being, I didn’t want to hurt them. Don’t get me wrong I love them with all my heart and I want them to be successful and happy in life. I was at that point in my life where I hated myself, there were days where I wished I never woke up in the morning. I just didn’t want to show my pain at all. So, I distanced myself and I know that it is my fault.
There is a friend who taught me a lot about life. She taught me to laugh again, she taught me to enjoy life the way it is meant to be lived. We made a friendship that was magical, that was special and most of all it was genuine, that I hoped would last forever. Right now, as I’m trying to fix my life and I’ve come to terms with my reality. I apologise to you. It was never your fault. If you read this. I love you.
If you have good friends who genuinely care about you, you have love. Always choose love. Because no matter what, love always wins.
Honestly, friendships teach us a lot about ourselves, about others and the way we view the world that we live in. Friends support us when we feel alone. They make us laugh and they are our shoulder to cry on when we need it the most.
If you have good friends, you honestly have the world.
Here are some photos of some of the friendships that at one point meant the world to me, and I cherish them so much.