A short list of things I’m slowly learning

  1. I’m slowly learning not to force things to happen.

I’m slowly learning that what is meant to be will be. I’m slowly learning not to rush things in my life, some things need time to grow. I’m slowly learning that I’m right where I’m supposed to be. If I have to fight and struggle too hard, it’s not meant to be mine. I’m slowly learning when to let go. What is supposed to be mine will one day come, what’s meant to be will fall into place, what is right will feel right and I won’t have to force it.

2. I’m slowly learning that life is not supposed to be easy.

Life is not meant to go the way we planned. I’ve learned that life is meant to be full of surprises, sometimes, there will be good days and some will be filled with tears and sadness and that’s okay. It’s a part of what makes us human. I’ve learned that the pain sometimes does go away, and when it does I will understand the lesson and that pain is a blessing in disguise. I’ve learned to have ‘hope’.

3. I’m slowly learning that sometimes it’s okay to not be okay.

I’ve learned that it’s okay to admit that you are not okay. That my feelings and emotions are valid. It’s okay to feel sad sometimes, it’s okay to feel broken, jealous and even angry. It’s even okay to cry. I’ve learned to accept and embrace my sadness. I’ve learned a lot from my sadness and I think the most important lesson that I’ve learned from my sadness is to be honest with myself about my feelings. 

4. I’m slowly learning that my reaction to life is everything.

I’ve come to learn that the only thing I have control over is my reaction to what happens in life. I’ve come to learn that I don’t have control over what happens to me in life, but what I do have control over is how I react to the situations. I’ve finally started to let go of what I can’t control and began to accept what I can. 

5. I’m slowly learning not to compare my life to others.

We live in a world where social media makes it so easy for us to compare ourselves to others. I’ve come to learn that everyones journey and timelines are different. Yes, some of us will be successful at 21 whereas, others might be successful at 41. We find the love of our lives at different times and are ready to have children at separate times. I’ve come to learn that there is more to life than just marriage, kids and success.

6. I’m slowly learning to love myself.

If I’ve learned anything in my 24 years of being alive it’s that we set the tone for how people treat us. If we ourselves love ourselves and know that we deserve the very best, we won’t settle for anything less. It’s funny isn’t it how we can fall head over heals in love with a stranger, yet when it comes to loving ourselves we struggle. I’m finally coming to learn that nobody is perfect, and the perfect life does not exist. I’ve stopped punishing myself for not living up to impossible ideas of perfection. 

7. I’m slowly learning to quit apologising for the things that make me human.

I’m slowly learning to stop apologising for everything I do and say, for the way I feel. I’m slowly learning to stop apologising for who I am. 

8. I’m slowly leaning to embrace change.

I never used to deal with change very well. I still find change scary, but a good scary. I’m finally learning that yes, change is scary but, through change I will gain something in return. An adventure, a friend or even a lesson. I’ve finally started to embrace change than run away with it. I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to consider different options, I have the power to make my own decisions. I’m slowly living the life that I know I deserve, and not the one that keeps me comfortable.

9. I’m slowly learning to let love find me.

I’m slowly learning that I need to love myself before I can let anyone love me. Right now, I’m focusing on myself. I know that love will be beautiful as it happens, when it happens. I’m slowly learning to let love find me. 

10. I’m slowly learning to trust the timing of my life.

I’m slowly learning to stop rushing things that are not meant to be. I’m slowly learning that timing may not always be on my side, but, it definitely is on the right side. I’m slowly learning to give myself time. Learning to let life be. Trust that everything that I want will one day fall into place when it needs to. And everything will happen when it is supposed to.

11. I’m slowly learning that I shouldn’t be afraid of my own voice.

I’m slowly learning that my voice matters. I shouldn’t be afraid to speak up. I’m slowly learning that I shouldn’t be afraid to share my opinions with people when I know that don’t agree. I’m slowly learning that I shouldn’t try to pretend that certain things don’t hurt me when they do. I’m slowly learning that my voice is a message to the world and it matters.

12. I’m slowly learning that the people you love won’t always be around forever.

I’m slowly learning that I’m going to lose people in my life. I’ve come to learn that no matter how much time I spent with them or how much I told them that I loved them, it will never seem like it was enough. I’ve come to learn that when you lose someone you love, your reality changes and the pain never really goes away. You just become better at hiding it.

Mariam x 

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