I’m Lost

For the past few weeks, in facts months, I have been feeling more and more lost and confused than I have ever felt in my life. Our society sucks, I hate that we are forced to believe that we should have achieved certain things in our life by a certain age. I hate that when our lives go down a different route, that doesn’t match societies expectations we question ourselves, we worry that we are doing something wrong. You ever get sad, you ever wish things were different. If that one thing never happened your life would be so different, you ever wonder what life would be like?.. Believe me.. I get it. I’m with you on that one. These past few weeks, I have felt like giving up as that’s always the easiest option right?. I’ve felt like shit, I’ve cried and I’ve had several breakdowns. My workload has piled up and I don’t even know where to start.

Where am I going with this?. Well.. Right now, in this very moment, lets ditch the underlying need to try and meet the bullshit expectations of our society. Instead, remember that there is no such thing as living up to expectations. Every single one us is unique and every one of us has our own timeline. Right now, let us all find comfort and joy in knowing that at some point in our lives we have all felt lost and confused. And you know what? That’s okay. It’s a part of life to fail, to make mistakes. Believe me, I know that things work out, even if things don’t feel okay for a very long time (and it might be for a very, very, very long time). Sometimes, it might feel like it’s never going to be okay. And you know what? maybe not today, or tomorrow or even the day after that, or the day after that. But it will.

Mariam x